My intent was to surprise Rolando, my host father, with a visit. I've remained in touch with his family for the last 12 years, both in Guatemala and in California.
Turns out the surprise was on me. Rolando is in Guatemala City recovering from getting a prosthetic. He is ok, just not in Xela. He won't be here for another two weeks.
His new wife, Elizabeth, and two new stepchildren are I here, and all are quite lovely. But it's not what I expected. The school kept it a secret from him, and told him that a friend of mine was coming, so the room was ready with a beautiful rose from his garden in a vase on the table. So sweet.
Elizabeth walked me to school today and Ana met me with the same smile and energy I remember from so long ago. We had a lovely day catching up and sharing stories and although I don't think my Spanish has gotten any better (and I know it's gotten worse in the last ten years), at least the feeling of chewing on my words has dissipated. Ana brought out pictures from when our group from Santa Cruz came for school so long ago and asked about everyone. It was so nice to spend the day with her.
Xela has changed and simultaneously, tourist infrastructure came into play right as tourism is at a low low low. So many other impressions that aren't important at the moment.
So now I'm at a strange decision making place I wasn't expecting, and sort of wish I knew about ahead of time but what can you do. Pauline is in San Cristobal right now and I can leave as early as Thursday morning and return when Rolando comes home. It's a long drive. A really long drive. Though I guess a lot of people do it for weekends and I will have a week. And I do really love San Cristobal. I suppose the whole point of this adventure was to not have a plan. So maybe that's what this is- an opportunity to stray. We will see.
In any case, after crazy transportation issues, it took some time to get to Xela from the lake. I spent an hour waiting for a bus that never came, got told there were no shuttles by two different travel agencies and pressed on to find a third that offered me one in two hours. Just keep asking til you get the answer you want. Glad I've learned this one!!!
So far everything is fabulous. Cold. Freezing cold. But fabulous.
Some pics of recent, including my view the last hour from road 148 to Xela
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
Friday, November 02, 2012
Que Beautiful
A lot can happen in 5 days. Your home team can be in the World Series. An earthquake can jolt Canada and send a tsunami warning and preliminary evacuations to the Hawaiian islands where all 4 of your parents happen to be vacationing. A Superstorm can hit land over one of the most populated areas of the United States, and threaten the areas where two of your four cousins are residing. Technically, this all happened in much less than 3 days. But this is how long I was almost completely off the grid. Thankfully, everyone on my end is ok. Giants won the World Series, tsunami warnings were cancelled, and although inconvenienced with no power or transportation, both cousins are safe and sound.
5 days in Guatemala was packed with it's own excitement. My friend Athena's cousin, Carolina, is Guatemalteco. She waited for me at the airport on Sunday morning, with the intent of taking me to the tourist mecca of Antigua, and perhaps a quick lunch. Instead, Carolina took me to her friends' house in Antigua for lunch (a very interesting Guatemalan/Swiss Israeli Jewish couple) where my first meal was Polish dumplings and onions. Their house was centered around a courtyard with a small pool, open to the sky to see the top portion of a beautiful volcano. Unbelievable. She then drove me up the mountain to Earth Lodge (www.earthlodgeguatemala.com), and against her better judgement, walked with me to this place "stuck in the 70's" as she said. It was Sunday, so there was an Americana musician and a BBQ and I really thought I had walked in to a secret summer camp open only to backpackers. Carolina walked me to my treehouse, nestled high in an oak tree with a private deck overlooking the valley below, and then I walked her back to her car, about half mile UP a hill. The entire time I wondered two things- one, is Carolina ever going to speak to me again, and two- how am I going to lug my backpack up this hill on Wednesday?
As is true of many places that are difficult to get to, Earth Lodge did not disappoint. Aside from the fabulous food and staff, the beauty was somewhat unreal. The land spans a semi flat area which is an avocado farm, with an elevation of about 6000 feet, overlooking the Antigua valley roughly 1000 feet below. In full view are Volcan Agua, Fuego, and Acatenango. They spend much of the day cloaked with clouds, but in the early early morning, they take up the entire 180 degree landscape. Earth Lodge is situated to always drink in these views. If you are lucky, you can see Fuego sputter smoke and lava.
I really thought I would just stick around the treehouse and lodge, gawk at the view, eat enormous family style vegetarian meals cooked by a lovely Louisianan chef, and relax. But a collective group of solo travelers had a different idea about how our time would be spent. At breakfast I was invited to join them for a walk to the waterfall. I'm in some of the most beautiful mountains I've ever seen in the world, how can I refuse this? Without asking too many questions, I tagged along. We traced our way back up the hill to the 'road', and took a left onto what to me, at first, looked like any old hiking trail. What I didn't realize is that there were several villages both up to the right, and down to the left of this trail. Within a few minutes of hiking, we came across several groups of Mayans in traditional wear, many of them children, carrying stacks of flowers, wood, and other crops on their heads. Panting and sweating in our hiking shoes (except for our solo male who hiked barefoot), they stepped aside to let us pass, wearing plastic sandals.We hiked through corn fields and flower fields, through oak trees, pine trees and more. The views were astounding. It was hot, our map was homemade, and a few times I truly thought I should stop, but thought it better to stay with the group no matter how slow or how tired I was. Four and a half hours later, after seeing a small trickle of a stream, we were back at Earthlodge, and I had a bit of an emotional moment. I was slow, I hurt, but I felt so good knowing that 4 months ago, I would NEVER have been able to do this.2 months ago I could start to imagine it. In essence...my body is healing.
The next two mornings, I braved the hill again, this time to volunteer at the El Hato school. It's summer break in Guatemala right now, so it was more like summer camp. We made decorations and masks and hats for dia de los muertos and Halloween. The kids were sooooo sweet, the volunteers and teachers wonderful. Earth Lodge has a partnership with the school, and will house and feed long term volunteers who work part time at the lodge as well. This is most definitely on my list of future possibilites.
Wednesday after volunteering, I took the collectivo back to Antigua with new friends, who all just happened to be staying at the same hostel. It was Halloween, and Antigua (and our hostel, unfortunately) was quite the party. Halloween isn't really that popular in Latin America, so we didn't see too many costumes on local people. The next day, Dia de Los Muertos, is THE big holiday. I was very happy I'd decided to go to sleep early to maximize this experience.
Guatemala celebrates Dia de los Muertos in a different way than in Mexico, with kites instead of skeletons. There are two big kite festivals, one in Santiago Sacatepequez, and one in Sumpango Sacatepequez. Carolina offered to take me with her family to Sumpango. I was up much earlier than my travel companions, who had booked shuttles to Santiago after breakfast.I didn't know the difference, and didn't care much, as I would be experiencing it with locals, and trusted them completely. All I knew was that Sumpango was the smaller festival. Carolina and her two sisters and 11 yr old niece collected me at about 7 am, and we got to the fairgrounds shortly thereafter. There were already about 7 kites up. The rest were in various stages. The kites I am speaking of are not the small ones that children fly at the beach. These kites are 60 meters in diameter, made of tissue paper and glue to create somewhat of a story quilt. Once all erected, they are displayed the way teachers organize their students for school photos, tallest ones in back, shortest in front. It is quite an ordeal, and one taken quite seriously. Having a child along enriched the experience tenfold, and all day, the sisters were speaking to me in English to explain things. The youngest sister cracked herself up regularly with her own Spanglish. "Que beautiful" she exclaimed when we walked up the hill to capture all of the kites up, volcano in the background. For this, we all laughed.
We spent about 4 hours (seems like the magic number) at the festival, and left for friend's of Carolina's in Mixto, about an hour away. They serve traditional fiambre (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fiambre) for dia de los muertos. I had no idea what to expect, and suddenly we were in a gated community with guards, and I was immersed in a Guatemala that I have never seen. The community was up a mountain (shocking, I know) in the forest. Everyone at the party was absolutely lovely and a bit formal. There were roughly 30 people there, and each time someone new arrived, they would pass around the outdoor tables kissing everyone on the cheek and greeting them. At one point, for my benefit, the entire table switched their conversation to English, which was kind, yet also surprising, as in my many many experiences in Guatemala, I've never been around a group this large who were all proficient in English. The food was as good as the company, though I didn't try the fiambre. But several plates of food, glasses of wine, and delicious desserts, and I was about ready to pass out at the table. Going back to the hostel and sharing experiences with new friends was wonderful. "The Book" speaks of both festivals, but what they fail to mention is that the Santiago festival actually happens IN a cemetery. Apples and oranges. But it certainly made for good picture swapping!
I had dinner with Nancy and Anna last night in Antigua, and said goodbye to them this morning to get on an early shuttle to Lago de Atitlan. Choosing a village to stay in was difficult, and I finally settled on San Marcos, which is sort of the "yoga hippie" town. When we approached the dock, there was a 60ish year old American man with a big white beard, long hair, and a tie dye shirt squatting down talking to a friend. He had a bone in his pocket. Yes. A bone. A large bone that I could not identify. He was swigging on a bottle of local hooch, discussing with his friend how he'd gone to Antigua for the day and the entire time he missed San Marcos, because "it's really the only place where these things are happening." I must admit, I was intrigued. Probably not for the same reasons (or substances) he was, but amused nonetheless. So I'm exploring this interesting place, dotted with Holistic centers, yoga workshops, weaving cooperatives and bizarre mixes of music, wandering through it's unpaved trails (here we go again) through coffee and avocado farms, and have stumbled across a restaurant with proper internet called Blind Lemon's, full of Mississippi delta art and music, feeling a little nostalgic for home, but mostly glad to just have a few minutes to myself on the internet before I have blackened fish and head to bed. I will attempt to add photos- if not now, then when I get to Quetzaltenango (Xela) on Sunday. I'm looking forward to reuniting with my host family there (and experiencing the surprise), and with Pauline, too!
Time for some Cajun.
Hugs.
5 days in Guatemala was packed with it's own excitement. My friend Athena's cousin, Carolina, is Guatemalteco. She waited for me at the airport on Sunday morning, with the intent of taking me to the tourist mecca of Antigua, and perhaps a quick lunch. Instead, Carolina took me to her friends' house in Antigua for lunch (a very interesting Guatemalan/Swiss Israeli Jewish couple) where my first meal was Polish dumplings and onions. Their house was centered around a courtyard with a small pool, open to the sky to see the top portion of a beautiful volcano. Unbelievable. She then drove me up the mountain to Earth Lodge (www.earthlodgeguatemala.com), and against her better judgement, walked with me to this place "stuck in the 70's" as she said. It was Sunday, so there was an Americana musician and a BBQ and I really thought I had walked in to a secret summer camp open only to backpackers. Carolina walked me to my treehouse, nestled high in an oak tree with a private deck overlooking the valley below, and then I walked her back to her car, about half mile UP a hill. The entire time I wondered two things- one, is Carolina ever going to speak to me again, and two- how am I going to lug my backpack up this hill on Wednesday?
As is true of many places that are difficult to get to, Earth Lodge did not disappoint. Aside from the fabulous food and staff, the beauty was somewhat unreal. The land spans a semi flat area which is an avocado farm, with an elevation of about 6000 feet, overlooking the Antigua valley roughly 1000 feet below. In full view are Volcan Agua, Fuego, and Acatenango. They spend much of the day cloaked with clouds, but in the early early morning, they take up the entire 180 degree landscape. Earth Lodge is situated to always drink in these views. If you are lucky, you can see Fuego sputter smoke and lava.
I really thought I would just stick around the treehouse and lodge, gawk at the view, eat enormous family style vegetarian meals cooked by a lovely Louisianan chef, and relax. But a collective group of solo travelers had a different idea about how our time would be spent. At breakfast I was invited to join them for a walk to the waterfall. I'm in some of the most beautiful mountains I've ever seen in the world, how can I refuse this? Without asking too many questions, I tagged along. We traced our way back up the hill to the 'road', and took a left onto what to me, at first, looked like any old hiking trail. What I didn't realize is that there were several villages both up to the right, and down to the left of this trail. Within a few minutes of hiking, we came across several groups of Mayans in traditional wear, many of them children, carrying stacks of flowers, wood, and other crops on their heads. Panting and sweating in our hiking shoes (except for our solo male who hiked barefoot), they stepped aside to let us pass, wearing plastic sandals.We hiked through corn fields and flower fields, through oak trees, pine trees and more. The views were astounding. It was hot, our map was homemade, and a few times I truly thought I should stop, but thought it better to stay with the group no matter how slow or how tired I was. Four and a half hours later, after seeing a small trickle of a stream, we were back at Earthlodge, and I had a bit of an emotional moment. I was slow, I hurt, but I felt so good knowing that 4 months ago, I would NEVER have been able to do this.2 months ago I could start to imagine it. In essence...my body is healing.
The next two mornings, I braved the hill again, this time to volunteer at the El Hato school. It's summer break in Guatemala right now, so it was more like summer camp. We made decorations and masks and hats for dia de los muertos and Halloween. The kids were sooooo sweet, the volunteers and teachers wonderful. Earth Lodge has a partnership with the school, and will house and feed long term volunteers who work part time at the lodge as well. This is most definitely on my list of future possibilites.
Wednesday after volunteering, I took the collectivo back to Antigua with new friends, who all just happened to be staying at the same hostel. It was Halloween, and Antigua (and our hostel, unfortunately) was quite the party. Halloween isn't really that popular in Latin America, so we didn't see too many costumes on local people. The next day, Dia de Los Muertos, is THE big holiday. I was very happy I'd decided to go to sleep early to maximize this experience.
Guatemala celebrates Dia de los Muertos in a different way than in Mexico, with kites instead of skeletons. There are two big kite festivals, one in Santiago Sacatepequez, and one in Sumpango Sacatepequez. Carolina offered to take me with her family to Sumpango. I was up much earlier than my travel companions, who had booked shuttles to Santiago after breakfast.I didn't know the difference, and didn't care much, as I would be experiencing it with locals, and trusted them completely. All I knew was that Sumpango was the smaller festival. Carolina and her two sisters and 11 yr old niece collected me at about 7 am, and we got to the fairgrounds shortly thereafter. There were already about 7 kites up. The rest were in various stages. The kites I am speaking of are not the small ones that children fly at the beach. These kites are 60 meters in diameter, made of tissue paper and glue to create somewhat of a story quilt. Once all erected, they are displayed the way teachers organize their students for school photos, tallest ones in back, shortest in front. It is quite an ordeal, and one taken quite seriously. Having a child along enriched the experience tenfold, and all day, the sisters were speaking to me in English to explain things. The youngest sister cracked herself up regularly with her own Spanglish. "Que beautiful" she exclaimed when we walked up the hill to capture all of the kites up, volcano in the background. For this, we all laughed.
We spent about 4 hours (seems like the magic number) at the festival, and left for friend's of Carolina's in Mixto, about an hour away. They serve traditional fiambre (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fiambre) for dia de los muertos. I had no idea what to expect, and suddenly we were in a gated community with guards, and I was immersed in a Guatemala that I have never seen. The community was up a mountain (shocking, I know) in the forest. Everyone at the party was absolutely lovely and a bit formal. There were roughly 30 people there, and each time someone new arrived, they would pass around the outdoor tables kissing everyone on the cheek and greeting them. At one point, for my benefit, the entire table switched their conversation to English, which was kind, yet also surprising, as in my many many experiences in Guatemala, I've never been around a group this large who were all proficient in English. The food was as good as the company, though I didn't try the fiambre. But several plates of food, glasses of wine, and delicious desserts, and I was about ready to pass out at the table. Going back to the hostel and sharing experiences with new friends was wonderful. "The Book" speaks of both festivals, but what they fail to mention is that the Santiago festival actually happens IN a cemetery. Apples and oranges. But it certainly made for good picture swapping!
I had dinner with Nancy and Anna last night in Antigua, and said goodbye to them this morning to get on an early shuttle to Lago de Atitlan. Choosing a village to stay in was difficult, and I finally settled on San Marcos, which is sort of the "yoga hippie" town. When we approached the dock, there was a 60ish year old American man with a big white beard, long hair, and a tie dye shirt squatting down talking to a friend. He had a bone in his pocket. Yes. A bone. A large bone that I could not identify. He was swigging on a bottle of local hooch, discussing with his friend how he'd gone to Antigua for the day and the entire time he missed San Marcos, because "it's really the only place where these things are happening." I must admit, I was intrigued. Probably not for the same reasons (or substances) he was, but amused nonetheless. So I'm exploring this interesting place, dotted with Holistic centers, yoga workshops, weaving cooperatives and bizarre mixes of music, wandering through it's unpaved trails (here we go again) through coffee and avocado farms, and have stumbled across a restaurant with proper internet called Blind Lemon's, full of Mississippi delta art and music, feeling a little nostalgic for home, but mostly glad to just have a few minutes to myself on the internet before I have blackened fish and head to bed. I will attempt to add photos- if not now, then when I get to Quetzaltenango (Xela) on Sunday. I'm looking forward to reuniting with my host family there (and experiencing the surprise), and with Pauline, too!
Time for some Cajun.
Hugs.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
and we're off!
I went back to the doctor today. It wasn't so much that I was convinced that something was wrong, I just wasn't convinced that everything was alright. This is what happens when every plan falls through over and over again over 8 months. I am not trusting my body as I should. My body hasn't been behaving as it should. We must spend some time reconnecting. My plan is to leave this coming Saturday for Guatemala, head to Belize for the Garifuna Settlement Day festivities, back to Guatemala to meet mom and venture south through El Salvador, where she will fly home and I will continue on to Nicaragua for another 3 or 4 weeks. No return ticket purchased yet, but somewhere around the first week of January.
Doc said everything really was fine, that my pain is healing and muscle related, and moving in the right direction. No abscess, no infection, just a tender scar. This good news pumped me up, and I began closing the circle on the inquiries I've made. And within an hour, this is what happened:
My friend Athena's cousin, Carolina, who lives in Guatemala City, has offered to pick me up from the airport and transport me to Antigua.
My friend Pauline made arrangements for me to drop my extra bag of cold weather clothes and other gifts and necessities to be shipped by the luggage fairies to the city (Quetzaltenango) these things need to be in so I no longer have to carry them. I haven't met these fairies yet, but I already love them.
The crazy treehouse with volcano views is available to me at Earthlodge. Comes complete with a bathroom with HOT water, on an avocado farm during avocado season. And oh yeah, by the way, we have a visiting Americana musician playing music and we are having a BBQ that day. Guacamole music fest in a treehouse. You can't make this stuff up and I love it!
That's just day 1.
The Santiago and Sumpango Sacatepequez Kite Festival for Dia de los Muertos is on Nov 1, and Carolina also wants to share this with me. I equate this with someone from New Orleans sharing Mardi Gras. What an amazing experience with someone from the area.
More is in store. This may be the most planned trip I've ever taken, but so far this is working in my favor, so this is good. I am hoping Carolina will also join me for the weekend at Lago de Atitlan.
Quetzaltenango plans will be it's own post.
In all honesty, the fact that I can actually envision myself getting onto a plane for an adventure is enough to be grateful for. I've been working on that lemonade for some time. It's time to move forward on this adventure I've been seeking, regardless of the order it's presenting itself. I am a little homesick for NOLA, and thinking about a stop there en route to Bahrain in the spring. But that's another story I just can't jinx again. If ever there was a time to embrace being in the moment, this has been it. All year.
Tenga un buen noche.
Monday, October 08, 2012
ok, so...
I'm not sure what happened. I was doing pretty well posting while I was in transition. Then I got a new job and BAM, not only did I stop blogging, but I stopped writing at all, and my creativity came crashing to a halt.
Well things have certainly changed. I mean, not in the creative department, but in the job one.
Ok, so I was planning on quitting my job at the end of the year to go to Bahrain to be with my friend Jillene and her family. For those of you who don't know where that even is, it's a small island directly to the east of Saudi Arabia, connected by a land bridge. It did certainly get some attention during Arab Spring, and F1 racing, of course. But for the most part, it's a calm Middle Eastern country, and I couldn't contain myself with how excited I was to be going.
And then everything changed. I'm sure there are a few of you reading who are already thinking of something violent or an outbreak in damaging protests.And you're right, though it had nothing to do with the country I was planning on visiting. It was right here at home. In my body. I had recurring, non-life-threatening abscesses that made things very painful and uncomfortable. I took my yearly pilgrimage AWAY from New Orleans for Mardi Gras, to San Francisco to visit my family, and ended up getting very very ill. A week turned into a month, and when I finally returned home to New Orleans, the darn thing returned. Without going into too many details, it was a rough winter and spring. Thankfully during that month, I spent a lot of time with my maternal grandmother, who I was very close to. She ended up dying in late April. I was on medical disability for the remainder of the school year, and quit as I had intended to do, but primarily for my health. And I still really thought I would be going to Bahrain at the end of June. House rented. Car getting driven to CA by a friend. Flights purchased.
But my body protested, and I was forced to have yet another surgery. Instead of from Bahrain, I am writing from my airbed at my parents house in Millbrae, CA. A far cry from the adventure I was seeking, but an adventure indeed.
Now, I have to say, all things being out of my control, there is no better back up plan than spending the late summer and fall in California with friends and family. I knew I was starting to feel better when I suddenly couldn't handle limbo anymore. Specialists, too much TV, packing and unpacking a strange assortment of things meant for winter in the Bay Area, and summer in Bahrain. So I made a phone call to my old boss and good friend, and within a couple of hours, I landed myself a teaching job in my old school district. Ironically, the trip to Bahrain, and unplanned-as-of-yet gyspy like travel that was going to happen beyond Bahrain was part of a bigger plan to make a career change. Jumping in to 8th grade didn't really meld into this big picture plan, but I was in a fog.
The job was offered to me full time for the rest of the year, and I really did consider it. I mean, I had to! Good kids, good gig, save up some money and perhaps replenish some of what I spent on my protesting body this year (insurance doesn't take to it kindly when you get sick out of state). But after opening up the books on Saturday and Sunday morning, reuniting with my procrastinating inner self, and a long conversation with dad, I realized that, surprisingly, taking a job in teaching isn't really going to help me get out of teaching. I know, duh, right? But what's that saying about the forest and the trees?
So here I am, finishing up a month long commitment with some goofy 8th graders, and I feel like I have come out on the other end of this experience in a different space. I'm feeling better, and most definitely more confident than I did two months ago, but not well enough to be so far away. Yet. I am, however, ready for a practice run. I don't want to jinx it by typing it yet. Doctor appointment is tomorrow so we shall see how far I've come, and then a plane ticket will be purchased. Hoorah!
Hopefully I'll be writing more. Soon. And better!
Well things have certainly changed. I mean, not in the creative department, but in the job one.
Ok, so I was planning on quitting my job at the end of the year to go to Bahrain to be with my friend Jillene and her family. For those of you who don't know where that even is, it's a small island directly to the east of Saudi Arabia, connected by a land bridge. It did certainly get some attention during Arab Spring, and F1 racing, of course. But for the most part, it's a calm Middle Eastern country, and I couldn't contain myself with how excited I was to be going.
And then everything changed. I'm sure there are a few of you reading who are already thinking of something violent or an outbreak in damaging protests.And you're right, though it had nothing to do with the country I was planning on visiting. It was right here at home. In my body. I had recurring, non-life-threatening abscesses that made things very painful and uncomfortable. I took my yearly pilgrimage AWAY from New Orleans for Mardi Gras, to San Francisco to visit my family, and ended up getting very very ill. A week turned into a month, and when I finally returned home to New Orleans, the darn thing returned. Without going into too many details, it was a rough winter and spring. Thankfully during that month, I spent a lot of time with my maternal grandmother, who I was very close to. She ended up dying in late April. I was on medical disability for the remainder of the school year, and quit as I had intended to do, but primarily for my health. And I still really thought I would be going to Bahrain at the end of June. House rented. Car getting driven to CA by a friend. Flights purchased.
But my body protested, and I was forced to have yet another surgery. Instead of from Bahrain, I am writing from my airbed at my parents house in Millbrae, CA. A far cry from the adventure I was seeking, but an adventure indeed.
Now, I have to say, all things being out of my control, there is no better back up plan than spending the late summer and fall in California with friends and family. I knew I was starting to feel better when I suddenly couldn't handle limbo anymore. Specialists, too much TV, packing and unpacking a strange assortment of things meant for winter in the Bay Area, and summer in Bahrain. So I made a phone call to my old boss and good friend, and within a couple of hours, I landed myself a teaching job in my old school district. Ironically, the trip to Bahrain, and unplanned-as-of-yet gyspy like travel that was going to happen beyond Bahrain was part of a bigger plan to make a career change. Jumping in to 8th grade didn't really meld into this big picture plan, but I was in a fog.
The job was offered to me full time for the rest of the year, and I really did consider it. I mean, I had to! Good kids, good gig, save up some money and perhaps replenish some of what I spent on my protesting body this year (insurance doesn't take to it kindly when you get sick out of state). But after opening up the books on Saturday and Sunday morning, reuniting with my procrastinating inner self, and a long conversation with dad, I realized that, surprisingly, taking a job in teaching isn't really going to help me get out of teaching. I know, duh, right? But what's that saying about the forest and the trees?
So here I am, finishing up a month long commitment with some goofy 8th graders, and I feel like I have come out on the other end of this experience in a different space. I'm feeling better, and most definitely more confident than I did two months ago, but not well enough to be so far away. Yet. I am, however, ready for a practice run. I don't want to jinx it by typing it yet. Doctor appointment is tomorrow so we shall see how far I've come, and then a plane ticket will be purchased. Hoorah!
Hopefully I'll be writing more. Soon. And better!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
testing...
Testing testing, 123. Been 3 years- just seeing if this still works. First big trip out of the US in a while, and looking forward to getting back to writing. Why is it that the things I love are the things I forgo when I'm busy. Arg. Let's hope this is an homage to change that. Happy blogging people
Friday, February 29, 2008
Hooray! Culture Shock! OR…how Rebecca got SCHOOLED.
If I had a dollar, heck, if I had a dime for how many different emotions I’ve felt over the last couple months, I would be a very rich woman! Thankfully, dust is starting to settle, and I am able to pinpoint much of this as culture shock. In my last entry, months ago, I wrote that I didn’t get culture shock anymore, and that I wanted to have it. It kicks my off my butt, makes me look at things in a new way, question, and refocus. Usually, the big question is ‘what are my fortunes that I take for granted?’
Well, turns out, I didn’t have to go far at all to experience this. In fact, what I needed, was to be in a different place, but not as a tourist. I needed to be someplace new for a longer period of time, to really feel the shock. Welcome back to New Orleans! I’ve been going through many different phases of culture shock since I’ve been here, just at a much much much slower rate than I thought. First came comparing here to home, and being excited about the nuances. I stayed in this phase for a long time, until it became time to re-join the workforce and get a ‘real’ job here in this new culture. Another layer of cultural difference started to unfold as I visited different workplaces, met with interesting people, and became acutely aware that I have been living in a tourist-based town, and one that operates mostly by word-of-mouth, rather than resources I was used to like craigslist.
I found a job as a middle school math teacher, something I’ve often thought about moving into. The details sounded ideal- 3 ninety minute blocks of teaching, one prep per day. I went and observed a functioning classroom, different than the one I’d be taking over. More and more of these layers were uncovered as I began my first day teaching. I brought my California ideas and ideals into a system that was very different. For one, I had 16 and 17 yr olds in my 7th grade class. For another, I had a class full of incredibly angry young people. Honestly, they had every right to be angry- here it was January, and they hadn’t had a teacher all year. And I can’t even pretend to begin comprehending what they were dealing with at home, let alone the last two years during and after Katrina.
On my second day, in my class of 6th graders, one girl started quite the raucous. Books thrown, insults thrown, she decided to walk out of class. I wasn’t quite sure what to do- how did I let the office know a child had left the classroom? I didn’t have a classroom of my own. Like the students, I moved from room to room to teach. Where was the phone?
This is when I was introduced to “the buttons”. In every classroom, there was a white button, and a red button. The white button just called the office, and a voice would come over the intercom system to see what was going on. This was for normal things, like so-and-so needs to call home for his library book. The red button was to be used if there was a disturbance, a fight, an emergency. When this button was pushed (and it did get pushed), the campus police would come directly to the classroom.
Without going into too much detail, it became very clear to me that this was NOT a safe place, or a good fit for me. Although some kids had started to turn around, I knew that making a difference was going to take a lot more than one semester as their math teacher, and was going to cost me too much personally. If I had to pick the one thing that really made me sick at night thinking about going back it would be this- the kids weren’t allies. As a teacher of this hormonal age-group, I expect some disrespect, some hostility, and even some hate to be directed towards me. But kids are supposed to take care of each other. Yes, there are bullies, and there are the loners. But big picture, middle schoolers are supposed to be overly consumed with friendships. These are the years of cliques, and first crushes, and slumber parties and ridiculously long phone conversations. When I realized these kids weren’t looking out for each other, and that so many of them felt unsafe, my heart sank. It became the first job in my life that I walked out on. I got seriously SCHOOLED in the New Orleans public school system, and thrown face flat on the ground with all of my presumptions.
It was a rough month after that, trying to regain balance, as more and more cultural differences began to unravel before me. Instead of marveling at the nuances, I was frustrated. I was trying to figure out how to fit in, if I fit in, and if these were cultural norms, or just traits that some people had in common. I found myself suddenly understanding why people who were from New Orleans behaved in certain ways, and why I sometimes didn’t see eye to eye with people who’s opinions I valued. I felt like the kid in math class ‘getting it’ for the first time, but over and over again in succession, to where it became exhausting just to get through a day. On a professional level and a strong supporter of (though terribly flawed) public education, I struggled with finally, completely, totally, understanding why many parents in greater New Orleans chose to put their children in private schools. I hated to admit that if I had a child, I would do the same.
Well, a week passed, and I was picking up any odd job I could find, and thought maybe it was time to throw in the towel, move back to San Francisco, and go back to what was….. comfortable. I think that was the moment I realized I could name my emotions, and decided I needed to see it through, regardless of what decision I made, or will make in the future. I needed to get through all the discomfort, wear it, sweat it, overanalyze it, and finally EMBRACE it. Once I started to see this experience as a lesson (and boy was it ever!), I was ready to steer it a little better, and look for all the positive growth it had to offer.
One Monday morning, I woke early, got on the internet and wrote a list of all of the charter and private, non-religious schools and their phone numbers. I cold-called almost every one of them. When in Rome, right? I knew there were plenty of smart, well-educated people in this town. They had to have gone to school somewhere. Through avenues learned living within the culture here, rather than getting yet another one-day gig on craigslist (though I do love them!), I connected with a friend of a friend, whose son needed tutoring. This led to a phone call to the principal, and a just-funded position, a fantastic connection, a gun-shy but successful school visit, and voila! I am now an academic interventionist at one of the two top public charter schools in the city of New Orleans. I work with 6th through 8th graders, again. Only, these kids are really kids. They’re silly and hyper, and have their temper tantrums, but I have yet to see one outburst that isn’t age appropriate. There are no red or white buttons, and there is no need for them. They hug their teachers, and most of all, they look out for each other. I wake up in the morning feeling fortunate to have such a fantastic job in such a beautiful setting (http://auduboncharter.com), and leave with hilarious stories about what happened during the day.
I got schooled, and it was worth the humility, and every tear and sleepless night. I asked for culture shock, and boy did I get it! As rough as it was, I can’t imagine not having pushed through these barriers. So what were the fortunes that I have that I want to be more conscious of? Culture shock taught me so much more about myself, and about my new friends and colleagues, and reminded me how wonderful, brilliant, and supportive my family and new and old friends are. I know there are more layers to unpeel as I live here (yikes- is that really what I am doing? Living here?), but I am now armed with more experience and information to make sense of those layers. I feel really lucky to be doing what I am doing, in a place so different from home, and learning so much while having such a good time.
I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it a bit differently this time- Come visit! I promise you will have a good time, and now I can say YOU CAN STAY WITH ME!
Back in my condo tomorrow……
-Rebecca
Well, turns out, I didn’t have to go far at all to experience this. In fact, what I needed, was to be in a different place, but not as a tourist. I needed to be someplace new for a longer period of time, to really feel the shock. Welcome back to New Orleans! I’ve been going through many different phases of culture shock since I’ve been here, just at a much much much slower rate than I thought. First came comparing here to home, and being excited about the nuances. I stayed in this phase for a long time, until it became time to re-join the workforce and get a ‘real’ job here in this new culture. Another layer of cultural difference started to unfold as I visited different workplaces, met with interesting people, and became acutely aware that I have been living in a tourist-based town, and one that operates mostly by word-of-mouth, rather than resources I was used to like craigslist.
I found a job as a middle school math teacher, something I’ve often thought about moving into. The details sounded ideal- 3 ninety minute blocks of teaching, one prep per day. I went and observed a functioning classroom, different than the one I’d be taking over. More and more of these layers were uncovered as I began my first day teaching. I brought my California ideas and ideals into a system that was very different. For one, I had 16 and 17 yr olds in my 7th grade class. For another, I had a class full of incredibly angry young people. Honestly, they had every right to be angry- here it was January, and they hadn’t had a teacher all year. And I can’t even pretend to begin comprehending what they were dealing with at home, let alone the last two years during and after Katrina.
On my second day, in my class of 6th graders, one girl started quite the raucous. Books thrown, insults thrown, she decided to walk out of class. I wasn’t quite sure what to do- how did I let the office know a child had left the classroom? I didn’t have a classroom of my own. Like the students, I moved from room to room to teach. Where was the phone?
This is when I was introduced to “the buttons”. In every classroom, there was a white button, and a red button. The white button just called the office, and a voice would come over the intercom system to see what was going on. This was for normal things, like so-and-so needs to call home for his library book. The red button was to be used if there was a disturbance, a fight, an emergency. When this button was pushed (and it did get pushed), the campus police would come directly to the classroom.
Without going into too much detail, it became very clear to me that this was NOT a safe place, or a good fit for me. Although some kids had started to turn around, I knew that making a difference was going to take a lot more than one semester as their math teacher, and was going to cost me too much personally. If I had to pick the one thing that really made me sick at night thinking about going back it would be this- the kids weren’t allies. As a teacher of this hormonal age-group, I expect some disrespect, some hostility, and even some hate to be directed towards me. But kids are supposed to take care of each other. Yes, there are bullies, and there are the loners. But big picture, middle schoolers are supposed to be overly consumed with friendships. These are the years of cliques, and first crushes, and slumber parties and ridiculously long phone conversations. When I realized these kids weren’t looking out for each other, and that so many of them felt unsafe, my heart sank. It became the first job in my life that I walked out on. I got seriously SCHOOLED in the New Orleans public school system, and thrown face flat on the ground with all of my presumptions.
It was a rough month after that, trying to regain balance, as more and more cultural differences began to unravel before me. Instead of marveling at the nuances, I was frustrated. I was trying to figure out how to fit in, if I fit in, and if these were cultural norms, or just traits that some people had in common. I found myself suddenly understanding why people who were from New Orleans behaved in certain ways, and why I sometimes didn’t see eye to eye with people who’s opinions I valued. I felt like the kid in math class ‘getting it’ for the first time, but over and over again in succession, to where it became exhausting just to get through a day. On a professional level and a strong supporter of (though terribly flawed) public education, I struggled with finally, completely, totally, understanding why many parents in greater New Orleans chose to put their children in private schools. I hated to admit that if I had a child, I would do the same.
Well, a week passed, and I was picking up any odd job I could find, and thought maybe it was time to throw in the towel, move back to San Francisco, and go back to what was….. comfortable. I think that was the moment I realized I could name my emotions, and decided I needed to see it through, regardless of what decision I made, or will make in the future. I needed to get through all the discomfort, wear it, sweat it, overanalyze it, and finally EMBRACE it. Once I started to see this experience as a lesson (and boy was it ever!), I was ready to steer it a little better, and look for all the positive growth it had to offer.
One Monday morning, I woke early, got on the internet and wrote a list of all of the charter and private, non-religious schools and their phone numbers. I cold-called almost every one of them. When in Rome, right? I knew there were plenty of smart, well-educated people in this town. They had to have gone to school somewhere. Through avenues learned living within the culture here, rather than getting yet another one-day gig on craigslist (though I do love them!), I connected with a friend of a friend, whose son needed tutoring. This led to a phone call to the principal, and a just-funded position, a fantastic connection, a gun-shy but successful school visit, and voila! I am now an academic interventionist at one of the two top public charter schools in the city of New Orleans. I work with 6th through 8th graders, again. Only, these kids are really kids. They’re silly and hyper, and have their temper tantrums, but I have yet to see one outburst that isn’t age appropriate. There are no red or white buttons, and there is no need for them. They hug their teachers, and most of all, they look out for each other. I wake up in the morning feeling fortunate to have such a fantastic job in such a beautiful setting (http://auduboncharter.com), and leave with hilarious stories about what happened during the day.
I got schooled, and it was worth the humility, and every tear and sleepless night. I asked for culture shock, and boy did I get it! As rough as it was, I can’t imagine not having pushed through these barriers. So what were the fortunes that I have that I want to be more conscious of? Culture shock taught me so much more about myself, and about my new friends and colleagues, and reminded me how wonderful, brilliant, and supportive my family and new and old friends are. I know there are more layers to unpeel as I live here (yikes- is that really what I am doing? Living here?), but I am now armed with more experience and information to make sense of those layers. I feel really lucky to be doing what I am doing, in a place so different from home, and learning so much while having such a good time.
I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it a bit differently this time- Come visit! I promise you will have a good time, and now I can say YOU CAN STAY WITH ME!
Back in my condo tomorrow……
-Rebecca
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
On to Chiapas

Everything written in my guidebook about traveling from Guatemala to San Cristobal de las Casas in was true. All of it. The road, though freshly paved, is somewhat treacherous as it winds up and out of one mountain range, and then into another. The beauty was indescribable, suffice to say that the views offered over verdant green valleys, and thick pine forests were something to gasp at. Although highland Mayans still look similar along the mountain roads between the two countries, the quality of life improves the closer and closer you get to the Mexican border.


Once in town, I could see why many travelers end up staying months. Fresh mountain air, clean streets, beautiful colors and architecture, and a healthy entertainment life makes San Cristobal a very comfortable, if not a little chilly, place to be. Because I knew I was going to be in the city for Dia de los Muertos, I booked my hotel online before I left the states. So I ended up in an absolutely gorgeous hotel, one block from the main plaza, in a suite! It was a treat.

I took 2 trips outside the city, a one day trip out to Sumidero Canyon,and a 2 day trip to the ruins of Palenque which included a stop at the famous Agua Azul waterfalls. Palenque was a highlight! Getting there was a 5 hour journey up and through the cool forested mountains, and back down into dense, humid jungle. There was NO WAY I was going to do that twice in one day like many do, so I found a nice little traveler’s village about 4 km from the National Park. El Panchan has only one road into it from the main road, and it stops abruptly in front of a check in desk. Beyond this desk, there is a canopied area that houses 3 restaurant/bars, and in every direction from this focal point, is a dirt trail leading to various jungle hideaways. It was absolutely wonderful. At night, people from every different guesthouse establishment would meet in the middle at the restaurants where there was a stage for live music, and people selling things from the region like silver and amber. Another place travelers end up staying longer than they think, El Panchan lured me with bamboo, wooden bridges over tiny streams, tropical flowers, and rain. It was relaxing, and absolutely gorgeous.

But I was more lured by ancient architecture, and spent another day at the ruins. On the way inside, I was met by a guide trying to convince me to hire him. The day before, I was asked to share an English speaking guide, who charged 60 US dollars for a tour. I declined, being more interested in a solo exploration. However, on this morning, I was ready to hear and see more. The guide and I chatted for a few minutes, and I kept telling the guide I couldn’t afford him, and he said he only charged 10 US for a Spanish speaking guide. I told him I didn’t really speak Spanish, and needed an English one. “But you’re talking to me in Spanish right now,” he reminded me, and I started laughing. He assured me he would speak slowly. I’m pretty certain that I got more out of this experience than I would have if the guide spoke English, as I had to focus, and ask questions when he used unfamiliar vocabulary. It was really awesome. Palenque was probably my most favorite new experience on this trip.

Dia de los Muertos
What a joy it was to be in Mexico for one of my favorite holidays! In Guatemala, I could see as some of the preparations were to be taking place. Marigolds covered the hillsides around the city, and farmers were busy gathering them for the markets. People were selling and flying kites around the city and the countryside. I didn’t learn much about the reason behind the kites, and I never saw them in Mexico, so that will have to remain a mystery for me.In San Cristobal, a pretty cosmopolitan city, sugar skulls and special orange drinks were all over the stores. Decorations, for Halloween as well, were displayed in the parks, hotels, restaurants, and homes days before the event.

I visited the city's cemetery on October 31, and watched as families repainted tombs that looked like houses, bring flowers and food, shovels and rakes. The place was swarming with activity and with color. Outside the cemetery, people set up shop, selling pan de muerto, flowers, drinks, stuffed animals, eggs, and much much more. Tile was bleached, fresh green grass spread out, crosses erected. There wasn't the fanfare I expected, but it was beautiful.


The next day, I traveled to 2 Mayan villages to see how the holiday was celebrated there.In San Juan Chamula, men wear either white or black wool felt vests, and women wear black wool felt skirts with a gorgeous purple huipile (blouse). It was freezing and rainy when we got to the cemetery, and standing on the top of the gently sloping hill, I could see dots of black and white and purple amidst graves, all in the ground (which I was later told is how the poor are buried). Musicians played, men were drinking, and golden flowers and this green grass (maybe it was straw?) was spread all over the graveyard. I did try to take a couple photos, but was given the shaking pointer finger after the first one. I didn't stay long here- I felt uncomfortable, like I was intruding on something that clearly didn't belong to me.
From here I took a collectivo to Zincantan. This was a much larger town, and therefore much more spread out. Here, men and women wore black, with shimmery teal and blue woven huipiles and tops for men. Unlike Chamula, where the graveyard just looked like a huge field, the cemetery in Zincantan was high up a mountain, and graves, both in and above ground, stretched up and down the peak like a labyrinth. With the forest in the background, the fog sitting low to the ground, the vibrant clothing, and the freshly painted graves with flowers, it was a color explosion. Although more comfortable here, I still felt like I should hurry up and move on to stay respectful.
Oaxaca is known for it's Dia de los Muertos festivities- people come from all over Mexico and the world to be part of the events. I had originally thought that being in a smaller town, but still with strong indigenous routes would offer me a deeper experience, not altered for tourists. Though this was probably true, in retrospect I think Oaxaca would have been a better choice, because tourists there are invited to the events. Here, though I did get a lot of positive response, I was overtly and overly concerned with being uninvited. No regrets, but I would still like to visit Oaxaca during this time period in the future.
Halloween, by the way, lasts three days in San Cristobal. Lucky kids. They dress up, and instead of saying trick or treat, they sing a little song, saying they are little angels coming from the heavens in search of sweets. If the person gives them a sweet, they scream, "viva la tia/o!".

After the holiday, I scooted out of town. I lost a little steam, and was ready to be warm for a couple of days, and I was ready to come home. So I took an overnight bus to Veracruz and spent two glorious days wandering through plazas, eating amazing new foods,and listening to all sorts of music all evening and night long. There was a rock concert in front of my hotel, a traditional salsa band where older gentlemen, all wearing guayaberas, danced with ladies dressed up for the evening. I went to the beach, which wasn't so spectacular except that it was warm, and nothing beats eating fresh fish while sitting in your bathing suit, feet in the sand.
From there, I spent two days in stunning Puebla, a city prettier, cleaner, and more cosmopolitan than many cities I've been to in the U.S or beyond. Spanish tiles cover many of the buildings, tree-lined plazas can be found around every corner, shopping, restaurants, and museums are all within reach. The food is delicious- my best meal was here in Puebla- a chile relleno stuffed with cheese and vegetables, and smothered in mole. I also tried a delicacy- huilacoche, a black mushroom that grows on corn. Sounds kind of gross, but it was delightful. From Puebla, I was ready to go home.On thinking about long term travel........
As Eva and I spoke about our previous travel experiences weeks ago in Guatemala, one thing became clear for both of us. The more places on the planet you go, the more you find places to compare to. On the quest to find something new and exciting, you find yourself or someone else saying, “Wow, this looks so much like __________ in Cambodia!” or “Oh how funny, we did something similar when we were in Zimbabwe.” This does something for being comfortable in what could possibly be an uncomfortable environment, but also takes away some of the culture shock, which is part of what we’re looking for when we travel. The enjoyment of the adventure is still strong as the realization of how small the world is creeps into this different-paced ‘daily’ life, but the adventure is very different than that first time. I remember fondly many of my firsts in regards to travel- the first time I realized that English wasn’t going to get me where I needed to be, the first time I saw turquoise water against snow-white sand, the first time I saw a monkey swinging from branches above my head, the first time I met my cousins in Budapest, the first time I saw a traditional celebration that I was deeply moved by but didn’t understand, the first time I saw poverty on a realm so very different from the USA. I remember the first time I tried starfruit in Israel, rambutan in Thailand, coriander in England, ceviche in Costa Rica, mole in Oaxaca; the first climb of an ancient ruin (the descent, maybe moreso), the first sunrise over the ocean and high on a mountain, first hike through the jungle, first ride on an elephant. I’m sure if I had a different set of goals for this particular foreign adventure, I would have had some new memorable firsts. But this trip gave me a different experience, equally as satisfying, but different than what I’d expected. I enjoyed it in a quiet, snuggling with my favorite novel sort of way, rather than an on-my-toes sort of way.
On this trip, I had the opportunity to connect with a family in another country, and to practice speaking Spanish, to negotiate unknowns in another language. I got to see how Dia de los Muertos was celebrated in a city, in the country, including modern practices, and Mayan ones. I learned, again, that everything is possible, if you ask the right questions. I learned that everything you hear and read about a place isn’t necessarily THE truth, but A truth. I learned that I really miss the feeling of initial culture shock- that feeling of ‘firsts’, and will look for a place to explore that at some point in the future. My ‘first’ this time had nothing to do with where I was, but with where I wasn’t- I missed people while I was gone for the first time. That hasn’t happened since Sagie died. When I traveled without her, I had someone (yes, she was a person to me, not a dog) to worry about. But since then, especially with internet all over the place, I didn’t have that feeling of missing people until this time- this was my ‘first’, and a good thing, I think.
I learned a lot about myself. I learned that though I enjoy traveling on my own for short periods of time, I would prefer sharing the experience with someone I know. I originally thought- hey! I can travel around the world for a year by myself!- but I don’t really have the desire to do that. I would like to continue traveling, and see lots of new places, but one region at a time, and with someone, or a group of someones (keep that in mind if you get the itch!). And with that, I close this chapter, to re-open one back here in New Orleans. It's good to be back, and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have had what has been available to me in the last 10 months.
Take care, and write soon!
Here's a link to the slideshow if you would like it. There are a few video clips at the end- some of them quite funny.
http://picasaweb.google.com/rebeccaLrobinson/MeximalaSlideshow
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